So Much on My Mind

I love when the brain works and works well. Today at my Zengar session, my numbers were so low that my trainer and I kind of looked at each other like "What?'

After October, in which my numbers skyrocketed because of family and other idiot issues, having my numbers this low is unbelievable. We're still not sure what to make of it. A healthy dose of exercise this morning may have been a contributing factor. Finding out during that same exercise session that I am actually losing INCHES may have contributed even more to my sense of confidence and well being and low anxiety. Whatever it is, I hope to continue it and we will make notes on the effects of exercise and good family experiences to my overall brain health. It's such a fascinating journey and every corner I turn brings new blessings and surprises and insight.

My niece called me yesterday with wonderful news about a courageous action she is taking in her family and I was absolutely beaming during our conversation. I told her how proud I was of her taking such initiative in such a hellish situation. No matter how the effort turned out, the fact that she took the hard steps forward when everyone else in her family has been living in the past is HUGE. Thankfully, everything turned out exceptionally well and a wall has come down. She is now the leader for her family, and most especially, for her child. Oh, sometimes this younger generation gives me such huge gobs of hope that I want to cry out in sheer joy!

For myself during the past few weeks, I've had confirmations of friendships that have lifted me up when a few acquaintances (whom I thought were friends) turned out to be a little too coarse for my consumption. Now, coarse salt is good, but coarse people have no place in my life. Even though I know the reasons for their bad manners, I've decided that life is too short for the drama that comes with being associated with certain folks.

People can be just like wine; some are perfect in timing and add immensely to your life with their style and flavor. Others are spoiled and fermented and need to be tossed out on the compost pile. Going to turn those sour grapes under and fertilize for something better to grow out of the mess as it always does.

In closing today, I am sending out a request to the Universe to take good care of my friend Dan as he has surgery on Friday for a cancer. Dan is someone I have cared for and admired for more than 20 years and I wish him amazing power and love through this part of his life's journey.